Goodbye 2017! Hello 2018!

And just like that, at the stroke of midnight, we said goodbye to 2017.

As I reflect back on my 36th year of my life, I’m extremely grateful.

2017 brought some unexpected twists and turns.

2017 was weird, challenging, tragic and an eye-opener.

The dynamics of the world changed & the world was struck with so many tragic events & natural disasters.

The highlights of my 2017….

. I started the first month off with a visit from Robin & Hailey & Lou who were here in TX on my birthday and our team celebrated the victorious comeback we made in 2016

.. In March, Ryan, Haylie, Rebel & I spent 6 days in Los Angeles together with friends. I got to see Rebel’s excitement, on his first commercial flight and together we had the most incredible time at the Tony Robbins event Unleash the Power Within. It was an experience I’ll never forget.

… In April Ryan & I celebrated our 8th anniversary in Honolulu, Hawaii, something we’d been dreaming of for years. I rode in a helicopter for the first time in my life & was able to check that off my bucket list.

…. 2 weeks after returning from Hawaii, I was able to take my family on our first family trip outside of the 🇺🇸 to Punta Cana. We snorkeled and swam with sharks 🦈 and stingrays.

….. in May, I celebrated my BFF ‘Manda’s birthday and 13 years of friendship 💜💕, had the honor and privilege of being selected for The Shift Shop Coach Test Group 2017 and then got to spend a whole week with my best friend, coach and mentor Becky in Miami and then attended EntreLeadership for the first time in Orlando.

…… in July, Rebel & I drove to New Orleans, Louisiana to attend my 5th “Summit” our annual coach meetup and got to spend several days with Hailey and The RELENTLESS Squad. Rebel got to see me recognized on stage in front of tens of thousands of coaches and making him proud was the best feeling ever! 💙 Later that month Ryan went to Unleash The Power Within – in New York, which proved to be something that had a great impact on our family and marriage.

…… this summer I finally decided to write a book about my life. I shouted it out to the Universe and got started on it. It’s scary to commit to something like that, but 2018 my word is FINISH. So I WILL finish it!

……. in August I took a trip solo to visit Lou in Charlotte, North Carolina for Labor Day weekend where I spent 6 days just relaxing and learning to let go of my workaholic ways & came back feeling centered and more in balance.

……… in September we celebrated my firstborn Haylie’s 18th birthday. It was purely emotional. The fact that she’s half my age and that 18 years flew by as fast as it has was so surreal. We spent the day jumping out of an airplane together (her, Ryan and I), which was symbolic on so many levels.

……… I took a position with a local company Brenham Kitchens which has given me the opportunity to get out of the house and meet new people 4-6 times a month and it’s been a fun experience for Rebel and I!

………. in October after being chosen to be part of the 80 Day Obsession Test Group, I successfully completed the 13-Week program and learned so much about myself, nutrition, my own capabilities and discovered a lot about some of the health issues I was facing.

………… in November, I attended my 5th Leadership Retreat, which was fully paid for by Beachbody based on my level of commitment and hard work and stayed at the ARIA Resort & Casino & had an incredible time with the leaders who had also qualified to attend.

………… I survived my 2nd birthday, a trip to my favorite party city (NOLA), my 3rd holiday season and faced lots of challenging & frustrating experiences & learned to attend events where alcohol was present and remained 100% SOBER! I celebrated my 798th day of sobriety on 12/31/17.

In 2017, I traveled a lot. I spent a lot of alone time doing soul searching. I reconnected with my husband as we rediscovered one another, as I became more comfortable with my sobriety. I learned to lean in, instead of avoiding uncomfortable feelings and situations. I learned to cope without alcohol and find peace with who I truly am. I learned how to let go of the things I could not and had no right to control. I learned how to ask for & accept help. I learned to say no when I needed to take care of me. I learned to face my fears. I learned to say yes to the people and things that served me. I learned how to let my guard down and give more love to receive love. I learned to stop chasing shiny things. I learned how to put myself first, my family second and my work/business third. I learned to accept that there is a higher power and discovered my spiritual side. I learned to forgive those who did the best with what they knew and had to give even if their actions caused me pain at once. I learned how to stop trying to fix things for people who didn’t ask for help. I learned so much about myself in 2017 and I know I wouldn’t have made the process I did had I not chosen to get sober on

10/25/15.

🎆 HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎆

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Staying Sober in NOLA

When I started blogging in 2013, I had no idea what I was doing. I started blogging about my new career that got started when I started my own health & fitness journey in 2012. I blogged fairly regularly and then pretty much stopped in 2015, when my life TOTALLY & COMPLETELY fell apart. I decided to get sober on October 25, 2015 and I am not sure why, but I never thought to blog about it. I have openly shared my journey on Facebook, YouTube and Instagram, but never blogged about it. Looking back, I wish I had of. It would have been nice to be able to look back and read my thoughts and feelings each day. So I feel like, starting a blog dedicated to my sobriety journey NOW, 18+ months in, is like moving backward. But, it’s better to start NOW than never, right?

Last week, I traveled to New Orleans, Louisiana for an annual event that I have been attending since 2013, that is hosted by the company that I have been with since early 2012. These events used to be an excuse to PARTY. The party began days before we’d even leave. I’d go into “vaca-mode” aka “party-mode” 2 days before every event.

Last year, the event was in Nashville, Tennessee. I was 9 months sober. I had already made it through 1 major trip surrounded by alcohol and our reminders of our old lifestyle and passed with flying colors, so I wasn’t too concerned about falling off the wagon. We had rented a house, which was far removed from downtown Nashville and brought our son Rebel so the temptation to drink was decreased. On that particular trip, some of our friends and houseguests chose to drink and the drama that I witnessed because of it was a great reminder as to why I quit drinking.

This year was different. This year I was in New Orleans, which used to be my FAVORITE party city. It is a city where anything goes. It is one place where I could go where no one knew me and anything is acceptable. I knew I wouldn’t fall off the wagon. I remain committed to my sobriety. I had Rebel and my step-daughter Hailey with me & I was there with my support system. But being in that city brought back so many old memories and familiar feelings. As the days go by, it’s easier to stay committed to this journey, but at the same time, as the days go on, my mind starts playing tricks on me. Part of me fantasizes about being able to party again. Part of me wonders if enough time has passed. Part of me wonders if I have healed enough to have a healthy relationship with alcohol. Part of me wants to “feel normal”. But then the other part of me reminds myself that I have come so far and haven’t needed a drink to celebrate or cope in 18+ months that has been full of exciting, happy, sad and stressful moments. I have made it this far without alcohol and my life is better because of it. At the end of every gut-check moment, I remain steadfast to my commitment, but the internal conflict is at times, draining.

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I shared some of my feelings LIVE on my 628th day of my journey.

Today, the kids and I went to the movies to see the movie Girls Trip, which the whole entire movie takes place in New Orleans. Rebel loved seeing all of the places that we had just seen days ago that were so familiar (The Convention Center, The Mercedes-Benz Super Dome and some of the streets we had walked down together).

The movie was HILARIOUS (if you have a dirty sense of humor), but it seemed like the whole movie was based on getting “turnt up”, bar-hopping and boozing it up because that is WHAT you are EXPECTED to do on a “Girls Trip”. You never really notice these things until you become sober. It is very apparent that alcohol is publicized at an all-time high on TV and in movies. Alcohol is more predominant now, than it was 15 years ago. Alcoholism is normally and so ally acceptable, which makes it a hard addiction to beat, because it’s legal and EVERYWHERE.